And the little chick flies the coop

’Last night, I was in my room, yapping on the phone with a friend of mine. The child pops her head in and asks “Can we talk in 5 minutes?” Translation – “I have stuff to do and need to talk with you now. But I will give you five minutes to get off the phone.” I tell my friend we need to wrap it up (only because we were pretty much done any way, mind you). She asks, “oh, do you think there is a problem?” My answer, “Well, she looked very serious- almost concerned. So, there is something serious to discuss or another kid in her class has lice and she needs a head check. ” We giggle.  
I go into her room and she tells me she just got out of “boot camp” the free trial she had for an exercise class. She told me the monthly fee and told me she thought it seemed too high. I agreed. I thought, “well, she looked awfully serious for that.” Then, she tells me. So, you know Max’s parents are moving and he needs to find an apartment. Well, he found one in the next town over. It is a house (like the one we had in Columbia) and a great deal. BF and I are going to move in with him. I knew this was coming… just not so soon. She goes on to tell me, we were planning on this but just not so soon. But Max is jonesing about his parents moving and wants to get a place as soon as possible.  
So, we go over the financials, the lease, the arrangement she has with the boys and the important fact that it has 2 full bathrooms so she doesn’t have to share on with the boys! I noticed the line that stated “Pets” was blank. I mentioned that there was something missing and pointed to the empty line. She said, “Well do you think you could handle both her and I being gone at the same time?” I stated my usual, “I never wanted her.” And, in walks the killer poodle. No one said dog, pet, her name, furry girl, etc. Yet somehow, she knew we were talking about her because, she was giving me a dirty look. Boo said she could take her but it would cost more money. Killer Poodle jumped on Boo’s bed and stared at me. How the heck does this dog know what we are talking about???? I told her that I’d keep the Killer until they settled in and figured out how it was all working out and if they could afford to bring her there. The Killer Poodle seemed to accept this and left the room. Seriously, the dog is telepathic!
As we are going through the last bit of it, she tells me, “I know it isn’t perfect but I am 26 and I shouldn’t still be living at home. I need to move out.” I almost burst into tears but held them back. Because, I knew the concerned look on her face was the fear that I’d cry my eyes out when she told me. While donning the best poker face I muster, I tell her that I agree, 
She had to go and fax the agreement to the landlord. When she finally left, I burst into tears. At times like this, I totally miss mom and grandma. I’m sure they’d have some wonderful words of wisdom to give me the kick in the pants I need

I'm bored

so, yeah, I guess this is what happens.  Things are good....or at least not in upheaval.  work is fine...new job about 1-1/2 years ago and I liked the challenge.  But now, I've created the process needed, put the people in place and it is working nicely.  so, I'm bored.  Funny, at one time the DEAR said to me, "when will you become bored with that?"  that was many years ago, in reference to another job that I never tired of.  I'm not sure why that job never bored me and this one does.  Maybe it is my age.

My friends are cool. But they all live about a 40 minute drive from my house.  And, my best friend has a new boyfriend.  They are so gross together.  You know, gross in the way too sweet sort of way.  She hasn't had a BFF since she and her ex-husband split up.  so she is eating it up.  She is constantly posting all over FB about it,  It is cute that she is so excited about it but other people see it as pathetic.  I don't like him.  He seems "too good to be true."  He is all over her like white on rice and there is just something that doesn't sit right with me about it.  Her mom and I agree.  But, I say nothing to her.  Her mother has...she is cool like that.  One of my favorite people ever.  She just says what she thinks and is completely honest.  I love her - she is my surrogate mom!   Any way, I feel sad and left out because all my BFF can talk about is this new boyfriend of hers.  I tell her it makes my stomach hurt from too much sweetness.

Cabana Boy and I are okay.  I'm not sure if I'm just tired of the relationship or have figured out that I'm not all that into him or if the boredom elsewhere in my life is flowing over.  His living far away doesn't help.  Nightly phone calls are more of a burden then a joy.  I've never liked talking on the phone.  then, during his visits, it feels like it is all about him.  I don't know....maybe I don't stand up for myself.  Maybe I just don't care enough.  I'm not really sure.  And, I can't really talk to BFF about it because she is all "la la la, I'm in love...lalalala" and she has seen all the ups and downs I've gone through in the past 3+ years.  So, I feel like she is sick of hearing about it.  it isn't like he has done anything wrong.  It is just, that there doesn't seem to be much left for me.  No excitement.  No anticipation when seeing him.  No expectation of happiness.

Part of me wonders if some of this has to do with peri-menopause.  I think my hormones have made me feel blah about everything.  But, maybe not...I know there has been other times in my life when the feeling of blah has taken over, too.  I can't even remember what brought me out of those times.  Maybe I need to dance more!   I'm joking - but perhaps it is a lack of exercise and the arts in my life.
So, my new year's resolution - figure out where this ennui is coming from and blast it out of my life!

Long time no write

Recently, I realized how much I miss writing.  I've kinda went into a funk and realized I needed my writing to get me out of it.  Not really sure what to write about.

I guess a lot of people have let me down recently.  I have a close knit group of friends that I trust and love and totally appreciate.  But seems like a group of people I thought were friends were not - else they don't know the meaning of the word.  At first it hurt and upset me.  But then, after being with those that are true, I realized that I was better off without them.  They are the type of people that insist you do everything they want or they stop talking to you.  Who needs that?

So, I have my handful of people I love and adore....who adore me.  I couldn't really be any luckier in that aspect.

Run its course?

I’ve been absent for awhile. Perhaps it is because this blog has finally run its course. My absence usually means one of two things: I’m busy or I’m happy. I’m both!

I love my new job. I love the work and the contributions that I provide.  Some of the people grate on my nerves…but such is always the case. People are annoying, self-serving and generally assholes when they don’t get their way. But, if this ends up being the worst of my problems at my new job, then I’m a lucky fisherman!

 My Cabana boy and I are completely happy, secure and couldn’t be more in love than we are! The only issue is he is on temporary duty on an island in the Caribbean. He went on assignment in January. I knew this would either be the demise of the relationship or completely solidify it. We see each other for long weekends about every 6 weeks. We talk on the phone for about 2-3 hours every week night and for hours on end during the weekends. We Facetime every other week (when he is at a hotel and can get WiFi). Thank goodness for cell phones. I think that because we can’t “do” stuff together and the only contact we can have until we see each other is a call/texts, it has caused us to communicate in ways we never have. I just can’t express how wonderful it is.

 I truly believe this was the way it was meant to happen. I think having someone in my life 24-7 after my nine years of being independent would have been too much for me to handle. I even now feel suffocated every once in awhile. So, this temporary assignment give us a few years in a long distance relationship where I can slowly become close to someone. When it is over and we move in together, I’ll be ready for the 24-7.

 Happy Happy Happy!!!

More wine

Evodia Calatayund Garnacha   list $8.49  Spanish

Centine   Toscana,  Banfi

Crooked Path Zinfandel (Paso Robles)

NV The Road Les Traveled

Red Wine, California

Our first-ever non-vintage wine, The Road Les Traveled is exciting, fun and approachable. Vibrant, ruby red in color with a nose of violets, blackberry blossoms and cassis, this is an inspired multi-varietal, multi-vintage blend that only Les would create. With complex flavors of chocolate-covered cherries and blueberry pie, this wine according to Robin ‘is drinkin’ wine!’ Enjoy!

40% Petite Sirah, 15% Syrah, 15% Tempranillo, 15% Cabernet Sauvignon, 10% Merlot, 5% Petit Verdot. 571 cases produced.    

http://www.stsupery.com/collat/techno/sts/11cs_note.pdf

More phone stuff

A Bottle of Cava that I don't want to forget.

Changing jobs

So since I am changing jobs, I'll be handing in my cell phone. It contains all sorts of tibits of info in the notes section. I have decided to put them here so I can find them again.
Movies to Watch:
Temple Grandin
The Intouchables
Cool Lyrics to a song:
We are love; we are one; we are how we treat each other when the day is done.
We are peace; we are war; we are how we treat each other and nothing more. book to check out:
Their Life's work - The brotherhood of the 1970's Pittsburgh Steelers Endocrine disruptors:
Use Muir Glen or Eden foods for cans
Fluoride free products
No Anti-bacterial products
No Phthalates (DBT, DEHP) hair care and lotions
No Parabens : butyl, methyl, and poly parabens No Sodium lauryl sulfates (SLS)

Ruth Chris Wine tasting:
Ferrari Brut NV, Trentino - champagne en Italia. Chardonnay grape. Nice! Not too dry. Feudi do San Gregorio Falanghina, Campania - crisp, apple bouquet, not too sweet or dry. Clean after Fontanafredda Barolo, piedmont Grape- nebella to be a Baro. Nice with spicy food. Bertani Amarone, VenetooNice body, no tanins!

Roy's Wine tasting:
Domaine Chandon"blanc de noir" Nice. Not too sweet nor too dry.
JustinSavognon Blanc, central coast, 2012. Fruity nose. Little acid, nice mid- bit of ifruit (citrus) Clean after.
Landmark overlook Chardonnay, Sonoma county 2011 . Typical Chardonnay- oakie. Current mid pallet.
Justin Cabernet Sauvignon, paso Robles, 2011-oakie. Justin obtuse red dessert wine. 2010/2011 - too sweet