Frustrated

yeah, I've been lame about posting. Guess I've been busy actually working at work. now that's a change. haha. But, also, just been on the go. Still seeing YM, but I'm fairly frustrated with the relationship. He doesn't seem to take my time into consideration or make setting up time with me a priority. I find it utterly annoying. And, I managed to fight with him about it today. I tried not to, but i ended up letting him hear the frustration in my voice. Seems like he doesn't seem to care if we spend time together and I'm getting tired of either holding time aside for him. So, I decided today that from now on, if he doesn't ask me ahead of time, I'm going ahead and scheduling stuff like I did before we were together. There is no reason to set time aside for someone who doesn't treat me like I'm a priority. I think I'll also start accepting dates with other guys. Seems like there's been a bit of activity that could be happening and I'm wasting my time with a guy who doesn't take our relationship seriously. Maybe he does - for a guy his age. Maybe really that is the whole thing. finally the age problem has reared its ugly head. I expect more than he is willing to give because he is just too young to give it. Sucks, because I'm not really ready to start looking again but, I'm thinking it's time. My girlfriend told me to wait til after the holidays, but I'm not sure I can stand the type of rejection I will feel over the holidays with him not calling me and me feeling like I have no friends or a life because my BF doesn't want to spend time with me. My one friend said Christmas would be the perfect time for me to meet his family. I laughed. Yeah right, tell his precious mother about me. That definitely won't happen over the holidays. No, I'm pretty sure there isn't much life left in this relationship. Sad part is it isn't because I don't care about him. it's just he isn't ready to be where I'm ready to be and I'm not sure he'll get there. And, I don't want to waste my time waiting to see.