I'm bored

so, yeah, I guess this is what happens.  Things are good....or at least not in upheaval.  work is fine...new job about 1-1/2 years ago and I liked the challenge.  But now, I've created the process needed, put the people in place and it is working nicely.  so, I'm bored.  Funny, at one time the DEAR said to me, "when will you become bored with that?"  that was many years ago, in reference to another job that I never tired of.  I'm not sure why that job never bored me and this one does.  Maybe it is my age.

My friends are cool. But they all live about a 40 minute drive from my house.  And, my best friend has a new boyfriend.  They are so gross together.  You know, gross in the way too sweet sort of way.  She hasn't had a BFF since she and her ex-husband split up.  so she is eating it up.  She is constantly posting all over FB about it,  It is cute that she is so excited about it but other people see it as pathetic.  I don't like him.  He seems "too good to be true."  He is all over her like white on rice and there is just something that doesn't sit right with me about it.  Her mom and I agree.  But, I say nothing to her.  Her mother has...she is cool like that.  One of my favorite people ever.  She just says what she thinks and is completely honest.  I love her - she is my surrogate mom!   Any way, I feel sad and left out because all my BFF can talk about is this new boyfriend of hers.  I tell her it makes my stomach hurt from too much sweetness.

Cabana Boy and I are okay.  I'm not sure if I'm just tired of the relationship or have figured out that I'm not all that into him or if the boredom elsewhere in my life is flowing over.  His living far away doesn't help.  Nightly phone calls are more of a burden then a joy.  I've never liked talking on the phone.  then, during his visits, it feels like it is all about him.  I don't know....maybe I don't stand up for myself.  Maybe I just don't care enough.  I'm not really sure.  And, I can't really talk to BFF about it because she is all "la la la, I'm in love...lalalala" and she has seen all the ups and downs I've gone through in the past 3+ years.  So, I feel like she is sick of hearing about it.  it isn't like he has done anything wrong.  It is just, that there doesn't seem to be much left for me.  No excitement.  No anticipation when seeing him.  No expectation of happiness.

Part of me wonders if some of this has to do with peri-menopause.  I think my hormones have made me feel blah about everything.  But, maybe not...I know there has been other times in my life when the feeling of blah has taken over, too.  I can't even remember what brought me out of those times.  Maybe I need to dance more!   I'm joking - but perhaps it is a lack of exercise and the arts in my life.
So, my new year's resolution - figure out where this ennui is coming from and blast it out of my life!