Well, C2 was supposed to be here to be sipping coffee on the porch. But sometimes life gets in the way of our fun. Her Mama went into the hospital and she needs to stay with her. I am more disappointed than I can put into words but I completely understand and agree with her decision. It just sucks all around. Her mom seems to be doing better. But, I think the sadness of losing her hubby is too overwhelming for her to bear.
My Lil Sis had her baby on July 14. He is a Bastille day baby. I will call him Frenchie! Frenchie came into the world at 8 lbs 11 oz. He was 4 weeks pre-mature. He looked like a linebacker in NICU with all the other premie babies! LOL. Lil Sis had gestational diabetes and I think Frenchie gained alot of weight as a result. They had to take him planned-emergency C-section. He is doing well. Brother in Law is such an idiot when it comes to telling us what is going on. Luckily Lil Sis called me the other night and I got to talk to her. She wasn't doing too well. Brother in Law texted this morning to have me tag some photos for him, so I took the time to ask about Lil Sis and Frenchie. Not much response from him but at least she is doing "better". No answer on whether Frenchie is out of NICU. I wish I could be there. It is too hard to be so far away. I didn't feel like this for my other siblings but I didn't "raise" them. I guess this is what it will be like when Boo has a baby (years and years and years from now, I hope!). It makes me re-think the job in NC.
Oh, the job in NC...yeah, well that. I'm going on an on site interview a week from Monday. They want me. I know I'm their best candidate. It sounds pompous but it is true. I have been doing what they want to do for the biggest and best company for the past 6 years. Before that I was gaining all the pertinent experience to do it. Sooo, it is just a matter of logistics. It is in a location where I want to be. A place where I can buy a cottage on a lake...where I can retire. The company has better culture than what mine is changing to. As far as a job and career go...it is a no brainer. But it is a scary move for me to make all by myself. I can make new friends, I do that easily enough. But I will miss the ones I have here. And, I'll miss Boo. I think she is ready though. I've been praying over the decision and begging the big G to help make it clear to me on the visit. I'm not sure how he'll confirm positive, though. He definitely confirmed negative on Boston and Portland.
Oh and a twist on the work thing. So this past week, my boss added a group to my reporting structure. Yeah, crazy, huh? My boss is considered universally throughout the company as on of the hard ass people to work with. And, he loves me. I know I kick ass and I never let him down. All my bosses have loved me. But I never thought I'd get him to that point. But he is there. So other than the takeover causing the culture to go to hell in a hand bag, my career is doing great. I wouldn't consider moving if all the other items were there. It is a hard decision I'm going to have to make.
My love life is a mess. Southern Gentleman has treated me perfectly...as he has done for months now. Last night he kissed me good night for the 3rd time. He kisses wonderfully. He is awesome toward me. But, I'm not sure. I don't want to hurt him. I don't want to lead him on. I don't want to be disingenuous in the least bit. I think I'm scared to let myself go again. I think YBBK's deceptions really sent me back to a place where I don't want to give someone the chance to screw me over again. I don't know. SG seems too good to be true. No one is that kind, patient, and considerate. I haven't had anyone treat me this well in so long. But, I'm not sure. There is something that holds me back. My intuition has failed me at times but I think it is right on here. So, I'm keeping my space. I need him to completely know how unsure I am. I've told him but I don't think he really gets it. My heart is very sad when I'm around him, though. So I know I need to remedy that situation ASAP.
Boo is doing well. She just made her own decision about dropping a class this summer at school. I'm not 100% in agreement with her. But, I let her make it. I hope it all works out. She doesn't want to ruin her GPA...love that! She has a 3.77! That is just 0.02 less than what I graduated with. Soooo, she could possibly beat me! LOVE IT! Oh yeah, she has left her Dad in the dust. Tee hee! That really isn't all that hard. Not that he isn't smart enough. He just played more than studied. Although, while her maturity level isn't quite there, Boo seems to have my brains. She just has my ADD, Lil Sis's dyslexia and so NOT my photographic memory. So, she is just not a visual learner. And, that is why I let her drop the "online" class. But hopefully, she'll learn from this and not sign up for another. :D
Well, I guess that covers it. The killer poodle is done hunting in the back yard; my coffee cup is empty. And, I think, it is time for the day to begin. I have helped organize a surprise party for one of my favorite people in the world. I need to get my stuff done round this place so I can go (guilt free) and enjoy seeing him surprised by the love of his friends (and gf who is one of my favorite people, too).
p.s. Project Surprise Blankie is NOT finished. LOL. It may be ready by Christmas or the first birthday!
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