Up all night - day 2

I was up coughing most of the night Thurday night. Each time I'd fall asleep, I'd wake up coughing. Finally at 4 a.m., I slept til 5:30.  I had tried the trick of sitting up, even that didn't help much.  I decided to go into work.  I figured I needed to force myself back into normal routine to try and help sleep properly.  Of course, by lunchtime, I was exhausted, so I came home.  I slept for 4 feverish hours.  I didn't think I should have a fever still.  When I awoke, I felt much better and thought perhaps all was good.  I showered, dressed and met a couple of friends for comedy.  I didn't cough much during the evening and thought, "hooray, I'm on the road to recovery."

Ha, I was mistaken.  Last night I was up every hour with the cough.  Again, I used my inhaler and slept upright.  I'd wake up every few hours...which is an improvement from Thursday night.  I watched the sunrise and thought of YBBK.  He went on a hike to watch it from a mountain.  I hate that I had to think of him.  I actually thought of him a couple of times.  When I was coughing, I was glad that I thought how glad I was that I was single and not having to worry about keeping anyone up (and having to leave my comfy bed).  But, I also missed YBBK, thinking how nice it would be to see him and cuddle with him.  How he always makes me feel better.  Then I poked my eyes out, to prevent myself from thinking that. (haha)  Funny what runs through your head at 3 a.m.  when all you want to do is sleep but all you can do is lie there and cough.

I'm kicking myself in the butt for not having gone to the doctor's yesterday.  Not that the idiot probably could do anything for me.  He'd say, "well, you need to rest.  make sure you are running your humidifier.  If it keeps up for another week, come back and see me."  Blah, blah, blah.  Yeah, I'm such a bitch when it comes to doctors. 

I really want to play first soccer game of the season.  I will probably do it.  Run til I drop.  I think it will either kill me or make me stronger.  Okay, C2, I won't let it kill me.  Plus, I'll probably be too tired to play.