Can this be love?

Oooo....with a title like that I bet you're chomping at the bit.  tee heee...I so crack myself up.  But yeah, I've been a bit quiet and won't say much here because I'm running late.  But yes, I am pretty sure I'm in love.  I don't want to jinx it.

You wanna know who, don't you.  Should I keep you guessing?  We've spent alot of time together recently.  And, when I started making excuses not wanting to see anyone else, I realized how much I care about him.  He is completely honorable and respectable.  There is no pretense with him.   I so love that about him.  He is kind and not judgemental.  He is independent and oh yeah, very smart.  And, he said he thinks it is sexy that I am smarter than him.  I am - but not by much.  Just a bit better recall and a bit better at logic than him.  He is a degreed EE, a couple years older than me and few inches taller.  He thinks about my feelings and what would make me (un)comforatable before he acts...that is such a rarity.  We've been out several times since Thanksgiving.  I even spent the night at his house - on the couch, as he didn't want me to feel pressured about sex.   He says he wantst to take it slow and his actions support his words.  His actions have continually supported his words.

I'm headed to see him (again) tonight.  He does have a very odd work schedule but I like it because it allows me time when I don't have to choose between him and my friends.  He isn't super social but understands my need to be. So he goes off into his geeky pursuits when I'm socializing.  He really understand what it takes to make a relationship work.

I'm scared, of course.  Because, I really like him.  I don't remember the last time I felt this way.  Probably with PJ but before that, probably with the Ex.  I never believed I'd feel this way again.  I am so comfortable around him.  I feel completely safe with him.  Oh, I've already told him about my insecurities and he has already shown he understands them. 

Today, I had a panic attack about the entire thing.  I wanted to write, text or call him.  But, I knew I'd see him tonight and I made myself calm down.  I'll tell him later about it.  I hope he'll understand. 

So, excuse me if I don't write for awhile... at least not about this.  I need to see if it is real.  It just seem too amazingly good to be true.