Just trying to catch up...
Thoughts on cat guy and dating. Remember cat guy number, uh, number maybe 4 or 5. He was really sweet from the mid-west and reminded me of PR. I think the reminding me of PR is why I had such affection for him. Maybe it was because he actually loved music as much as he claimed. The boy(I think man is more appropriate for him) knew ALOT about music. I was impressed...and, we all know it takes quite a bit for me to be impressed.
Any way, we all knew I was "dating around". I read that stupid book (not sure why I just called it stupid seeing as I've recommended it to 3 different people...but I'll leave it unedited) Mars and Venus Starting Over. It was a good book. But, it recommended "dating around" - not to be confused with sleeping around (thank goodness for that!). But, it said you should be dating in a 3 guy rotation...one on the way in, one current and one on the way out. don't look at me like that, I didn't write the stinkin book - just was foolish enough to take it's advice. So, cat guy 4or5, was the current guy. We chatted on the phone...more like he talked and I glazed over... but that is another one of my shortcomings...attention span of a goldfish...aka A.D.D! Any way, he loved photography and music as much as me. I didn't get a chance to see his studio...regret that one. Only had 2 dates with him. Seems like more, but must have been all the emails. Any way, I let him kiss me goodbye on date number 2. Not sure why.
Again, think the whole getting physical messes with my head too much. Starting to think those "extremely conservative" Christians are smarter than I used to give them credit for. Any way, it was a hug and a kiss. I did enjoy his company and I did have genuine affection for him and at the time, it seemed like a good idea... and alcohol didn't even come into play (once again proving I am absolutely, positively, without a doubt, capable of making bad decisions without the help of others!) Any way, as the story goes, i meet not a cat guy within a couple of days. This is when it gets complicated... well not really. It is pretty simple in my head. I like not a cat guy better and I need to cut loose cat guy 4or5. So, being the absolute coward that I am, I write an email. Yeah, yeah, but that was how we communicated 90% of the time, so that's my justification and I'm sticking to it. I was strong enought to tell him the truth (he knew I was dating more than one person).
Any way, he writes back, "I would be lying if I didn't say that I'm feeling pretty disappointed right now though. What can I say? You gave me butterflies." If it wasn't so plainly and sweetly written, I'd say, "low blow!" But, it wasn't meant to hurt. It was just the honest truth (or so I'd like to believe) and that is probably why it hurt so bad. I did really have affection for him because he is a really good person. I felt like a heel. I guess that is why I called the book stupid. If not a cat guy and I don't make it, I'm not listening to any stupid self-help book again. I will date only one guy at a time. It's less complicated. It is MUCH easier to break up with someone cuz they annoy me rather than because I like someone else better. Much easier!!
Thoughts on cat guy and dating. Remember cat guy number, uh, number maybe 4 or 5. He was really sweet from the mid-west and reminded me of PR. I think the reminding me of PR is why I had such affection for him. Maybe it was because he actually loved music as much as he claimed. The boy(I think man is more appropriate for him) knew ALOT about music. I was impressed...and, we all know it takes quite a bit for me to be impressed.
Any way, we all knew I was "dating around". I read that stupid book (not sure why I just called it stupid seeing as I've recommended it to 3 different people...but I'll leave it unedited) Mars and Venus Starting Over. It was a good book. But, it recommended "dating around" - not to be confused with sleeping around (thank goodness for that!). But, it said you should be dating in a 3 guy rotation...one on the way in, one current and one on the way out. don't look at me like that, I didn't write the stinkin book - just was foolish enough to take it's advice. So, cat guy 4or5, was the current guy. We chatted on the phone...more like he talked and I glazed over... but that is another one of my shortcomings...attention span of a goldfish...aka A.D.D! Any way, he loved photography and music as much as me. I didn't get a chance to see his studio...regret that one. Only had 2 dates with him. Seems like more, but must have been all the emails. Any way, I let him kiss me goodbye on date number 2. Not sure why.
Again, think the whole getting physical messes with my head too much. Starting to think those "extremely conservative" Christians are smarter than I used to give them credit for. Any way, it was a hug and a kiss. I did enjoy his company and I did have genuine affection for him and at the time, it seemed like a good idea... and alcohol didn't even come into play (once again proving I am absolutely, positively, without a doubt, capable of making bad decisions without the help of others!) Any way, as the story goes, i meet not a cat guy within a couple of days. This is when it gets complicated... well not really. It is pretty simple in my head. I like not a cat guy better and I need to cut loose cat guy 4or5. So, being the absolute coward that I am, I write an email. Yeah, yeah, but that was how we communicated 90% of the time, so that's my justification and I'm sticking to it. I was strong enought to tell him the truth (he knew I was dating more than one person).
Any way, he writes back, "I would be lying if I didn't say that I'm feeling pretty disappointed right now though. What can I say? You gave me butterflies." If it wasn't so plainly and sweetly written, I'd say, "low blow!" But, it wasn't meant to hurt. It was just the honest truth (or so I'd like to believe) and that is probably why it hurt so bad. I did really have affection for him because he is a really good person. I felt like a heel. I guess that is why I called the book stupid. If not a cat guy and I don't make it, I'm not listening to any stupid self-help book again. I will date only one guy at a time. It's less complicated. It is MUCH easier to break up with someone cuz they annoy me rather than because I like someone else better. Much easier!!
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Look at my girl though - strong enough to tell the truth rather than just let silence tell the story. We know how I feel about that one.
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