Sickness and cloud nine

So, when we last left our hapless heroine, she was upset about being neglected by her dashing YM. It's true she was upset but the neglected part may have been in her head. She needed to know so she did what any geek would do...she graphed every date they ever had and the time between each. A little crazy? Yes! But, YM had actually done half the work for her. At one point, he had graphed the dates to display the time between dates was coming down with time and it made him happy. Yes, very dorky - but completely endearing, at least to our heroine. So, she finished the graph to realize that the time between dates was still decreasing and most of the issue was in her head. She realized that she wasn't being neglected - it just felt like it because she wanted to spend more time wiht him. Luckily, she did this crazy exercise on her own and YM was never the wiser.

Thursday night YM came to visit and as it turned out, it was pretty much a weekend visit. Both went to work on Friday. And, he stopped back at his place but then showed up for dinner and movie night with flowers and candy in hand. The flowers were beautiful - roses, my favorite. The candy Lindt...another favorite. His thoughtfulness is amazing. When ever he is around, everything seems perfect. We spent the weekend watching movies, cuddling, taking walks with the fuzz ball, a ride on his motorcycle, and fixing a few things around the house. Yup he fixed a few things for me. I cooked dinner for him and he raved about the food. Another big plus. We can spend hours talking about everything and nothing. I told him I loved him. I do.

This morning I passed out in the shower. Luckily he was here to take care of me. He put me back to bed, gave me some ginger ale and stayed with me til it seemed I was okay. Not sure why I passed out. Not normal for me, but I think I have a flu. I do get light headed when I have a fever and I'm guessing that is what caused it. He seemed so worried. I wanted to make him feel better. funny how that works. I told him it was just a happiness hangover. Any way, he said he'd stop by and see how I am later. I've slept all day. I'm not hungry but made myself eat some toast and drink jucie. wish roomie was here to make potato soup. That made getting sick worthwhile! haha. But being sick doesn't seem all that bad when I know YM is coming to see me. :)

yes, I said the "L" word. And yes, I mean it. Too bad there has to be such a ridiculous age gap between us. But, I'm guessing the big "G" likes to make my life complicated. haha. The whole being in love will make for some serious insecurities. I know that. the cowardly ex created a huge hole in me, a serious crack in my foundation. So, I know this admission of love will cause me to be wobbly. But, I'm up for it. YM loves me too. I've known that. I didn't need to hear him say it back. He did with extreme joy. So, I might be sick, but I'm definitely on cloud nine!