Stupid men

It's PJ's birthday today. I sent him a text wishing him a happy birthday. I wish I had forgotten because his text back was along the lines of "I'm getting old but not dead yet." Nothing personal, nothing along the lines of concern as to how I am. It makes me so sad. How can he be so cold toward me. I guess it is what he needs to do. I guess he really does want me to move on. I'm trying but I know if he were to show up on my doorstep today and put his arms around me, I'd let him. I'd let him back into my life. But, he doesn't seem to plan on doing it, so I have to continue to plod along.

This weekend I met PG at a house party. There was wine, pizza, and music. Our friend was playing the blues and I was dancing. It felt good to dance with PG. After the music was over, we sat and chatted for a bit. He was very affectionate. He walked me to my car and asked me to drive him to his. For the first time, he kissed me with a real kiss. He wanted to come home with me but I declined. I thought the girls would be here and didn't think it'd be appropriate to have him here with me. Nothing besides cuddling would have happened, but they would still see it as more. Instead, I drove down to his place in the morning for breakfast and then a hike. On the hike, he was very affectionate as well. I had to meet some friends for movies, so when we got back to his place, I took off. I'm trying to protect myself from falling too hard for him. He said he wants to date because he hasn't done that in the past and he doesn't want to screw up again. I understand that, but don't trust the relationship.

So, as a result, I went out with another guy. I met him for dinner and drinks last Tuesday. He's a runner and works for my BFE's favorite service. He retired from another service, though. I've never really dated a guy who was in the service. I should say, I only went on one date with a guy who was in the service. Thus, dating doesn't apply. He is really into me. I like that. I know, how pathetic am I. We actually have a ton in common...other than the fact that he has three kids under the age of 11. He has one son the same age as Boo. He was married twice. He seems very down to earth and sweet. He is close to my age. My only concern is he will smother me. Any way, date #2 is tomorrow. We'll see how that goes. If well, perhaps I'll name him.

As far as CB goes, well nothing there. His birthday was last Tuesday. I sent him an email and a text message wishing him Happy Birthday. He responded thanks to the text and nothing to the email. I chose not to email him the rest of the week. He is too lazy when it comes to relationships. And, basically, since I have other guys paying attention to me, I see no reason not to cut him loose. So really, as far as I'm concerned, it's over with him.