Hard way home

I was so happy, so sure of everything.  And then out of no where, everything I thought was true wasn't.  I don't quite get how such things can happen.  I thought I had found someone who was so similar to me that he would understand and love me eternal.  I believed it. I didn't let myself freak out or fret (too much).  But, in the long run, I was wrong again.  I'm not sure how I can continue to keep trying to do it.  But like in all things in this life, giving up isn't an option.  I don't know how to "opt out".  So, it is time to pick myself up, dust myself off and start all over again.  This song by my favorite artist Brandie C. has been speaking to me and is pretty much my anthem these days....

I sometimes lose my faith in luck
I don't know what I want to be when I grow up
I just count the rain
Wearing the floor through the boards again


I wish I could find a soul to steal
I could be the engine, you could be the wheel
When we're driving home, I never have to worry about being alone

I follow my tracks
See all the times I should have turned back
I wept alone
I know what it means to be on my own


The things I have known
Looks like I'm taking the hard way home
The seeds I've sown
Taking the hard way home
Taking the hard way home

I never did learn how to follow the rules
I never was good at sleeping while the moon was full
I just lie and burn
Wreck my mind while the planet turns


I sometimes wish I could start again
I'd try and do the right things every now and then
I'd step in line
That's what I would do if I could turn back time


I follow my tracks
See all the times I should have turned back
I wept alone
I know what it means to be on my own

The things I have known
Looks like I'm taking the hard way home
The seeds I've sown
Taking the hard way home
Taking the hard way home

I tell you how I want to live
Forget about the take
Forget about the give
I want to leave this town
Fake my death and never be found

Oooh, follow my tracks
See all the times I should have turned back
Oooh, I wept alone
I know what it means to be on my own

Oooh, the things I have known
Looks like I'm taking the hard way home
Oooh, the seeds I've sown
Taking the hard way home
Taking the hard way home

I sometimes lose my faith in luck
I don't know what I want to be when I grow up
I just count the rain
Wearing the floor through the boards again

I wish I could find a soul to steal
I could be the engine, you could be the wheel
When we're driving home, I never have to worry about being alone

Oooh, the things I have known
Looks like I'm taking the hard way home
Oooh, the seeds I've sown

Taking the hard way home
Taking the hard way home
Taking the hard way home