S.A.D.

I’m starting to get depressed and I’m not sure how to fix it. I know a lack of sunlight is part of the problem (SAD). Also, I am having major stomach issues. I’ve spent a lot of time trying to figure out what to do to fix them. I stopped eating and that seemed to make the issue worse. But eating little tiny meals throughout the day helped at first but not any more. I don’t want to go to the doctor and get a “fix it” pill. I just want to be normal again. I feel like if I could get outside and exercise more, I’ll be better. But it will be a few more weeks until the weather gets warmer and the sun is out longer and I can go outside after work. I tried a couple of times last week and it seemed to help…a little. I’m thinking of purchasing a sunlamp to help out.


In the mean time, I can’t seem to focus at work or home. I feel distracted and uneasy. I either don’t sleep at all or sleep 14 hours. Saturday night was 14 hours. Last night was not at all. Of course, Firsty was in bed with me Saturday night –which explains why I didn’t get out of bed Sunday morning. He seems to be able to sleep much longer than I can. I haven’t met many people who do that. I need to learn to get up when he is in bed still. But, I didn’t want to lose out on cuddle time, either.

I’m getting ready for a party that I’m hosting at my house on Friday. I kinda got suckered into it. I don’t mind doing it but do mind the fact that the person I’m doing for can be downright inconsiderate. She “volunteered” to make breakfast at my place the next day for those sleeping over. I did open up the place for over night but she never asked me if she could cook in my kitchen. From talking to a few people, seems like only us Italians have issue with letting someone else cook in our kitchen. I’m trying to be gracious but damn – that woman needs to learn some social graces! So frustrating.

Any way, I’m looking forward to spring – I know 2 more months! But I’m sure everything will be much better then. Except, I want to feel better – right now!