Worth the wait

I have been relatively quiet about Firsty. Because, as usual, when I am quiet, it is because things are progressing well and I’m terrified to break the spell. I will only briefly mention things about him because I don’t want to break the spell or break his trust.

We exchanged Christmas gifts and he totally spoiled me with chocolates, cashmere scarves, gloves, bath salts and two necklaces. I couldn’t believe he had bought me so many things. He also got a card. I felt like a heal because while I bought him some very thoughtful presents, I hadn’t gotten him a card. I so rarely think of cards these days. His card said, “More than yesterday, less than tomorrow…” open card “I love you. Merry Christmas.” Hand written was “here’s to our first Christmas together.” It was the first time he indicated he loved me. He is the quiet type, so I’m not surprised he did it in that way. I teared up when I read it.

We stayed in contact while I was in Mexico and made plans for NYE. When I got home, we were planning on going to a party with my Sailing Town group. But, the travel people changed my flights, the party was in a different location than I had thought and after driving the beautiful blonde home, I had no desire to go out again. He understood that – actually he had anticipated it. He brought over some snacks (knowing I’d have no food in the house after being gone so long) and champagne. We spent the evening snuggling on the couch. For the first time in years, I watched the ball drop. Dang Dick Clark looks old…and it is sad to see him because he has had a stroke. A good reminder in the wake of New Year to not take anything for granted.

We talk for hours and never seem to grow bored of each other. He is very observant of my reaction to things and exteremely understanding. I think he actually loves me. I know, I second guess everyone all the time and am trying not to. I do adore him and want to trust him. He does seem like “what you see is what you get” like my friends tell me. But, I am still scared. I’ve been betrayed by those people that I thought I could trust in the past. So I am cautious. He understands that and my insecurity and doesn’t get frustrated with me.

I think he said it all when he said to me, “I had to wait 47 years for this….but it is totally worth the wait.”