I miss him so

I heard a song this morning. It was about missing the love of your life. It made me think about past relationships. I realized that PJ is the only ex that I miss like this. Neither the Cowardly Ex nor Boo’s Dad, nor any boyfriend since fits the bill. It was a bit of an eye-opener. I realized that none of my past relationships made me feel loved and taken care of the way he did. Yet, he treated me like an equal. It was an amazing partnership.

I wish I could understand what went wrong there. I wonder, if I never let him go the first time, if it would have been as beautiful all along. I do believe the damage he suffered along the way caused the last break up. But maybe it was me demanding too much of anyone. Maybe it was me demanding the appropriate amount and him not having the reserve to pull from. I guess I’ll never know. I do miss him so.


I miss the arms that used to hold me
The tender way we used to kiss
I miss the way that you touch me
I miss the sweet taste of your lips

I was a fool to ever leave you
You were a fool to let me go
Oh it's so lonesome, lonesome here with out you
Oh how I miss you so

It hurt... it hurt... it hurt so bad
You were the best man I ever had
Why was I so blind to see?
Now the biggest fool is me

I miss the arms that used to hold me
The tender way we used to kiss
Ooo... yes... ooo... I miss the way that you touch me
I miss the sweet taste of your lips.