Life Sucks

The Vegas trip put a kibosh on my weight loss. Actually gained a couple...ugh! We walked and hiked a lot, but we also ate junkfood and consumed too much alcohol. So, the weight is up and the belly looks awful. The weather sucks! I'm supposed ot fly out on Thursday at 2 p.m. And, a big, huge winter storm is making it's way up the east coast. When is it supposed to hit me? Yep, that's right, on Wednesday evening through Thursday night. FUCKING hate the damn winter and the way it fucks with my plans. And, Cabana boy sucks. Mother fucker. He isn't sure his place will be ready by Friday....so.....he might want me to cancel the trip. He isn't sure if his utilities will be on and won't know til tomorrow afternoon. In the meantime, in order to change my flight, I need to have a heads up as soon as possible because of the fucking weather. I am pretty sure I'll need to move my trip. I can't move it yet because the storm isn't close enough. SW will let me change whenever if I move off Thursday...probably as of tomorrow morning. But he won't know about his utilities until tomorrow morning. And, I've been laying into him - last night and today. I'm tired of his bullshit and feel like I need to be treated better. My heart is breaking. I really feel like the relationshp has come to an end. Actually texting him right now and asked if he wanted me in his life. Waitng on his reply now.....Still pressing to wait to talk tonight. I feel like again, he is going to try and pacify me by telling me this and that. But quite frankly, if I cancel my trip, the relationship is over. I'm done with his BS.