“He lacks passion.” That’s M&Ms assessment of P1. I think he might be right or at least at this moment in time, he’s right. Maybe as P1 gets to know me better , he’ll open up and I’ll see more a of a passionate person. But, I’m not so sure. They say still waters run deep – but the waters remains still right? He does all the right things…polite, considerate and kind – a perfect gentleman. And he is honest. So there is no reason not to continue to investigate the relationship.
“I like his kids better than him.” How bad is that? I’m not really sure the assessment is true or fair. I like kids better than most adults. But P2 does have a way of making everything about him. It makes attempting to answer his questions annoying. I’m toying with giving him an absolutely ludicrous answer just to see if he is actually listening or if the question is just a ploy to talk about himself (as I suspect). But he does seem to care about me. He’s honest, consistent and passionate. He’s definitely passionate.
“He’s way too young.” I know this. But I can’t help myself. Young Man is so refreshing. He is kind, sweet, honest and just all around a great guy. He isn’t jaded in the least. I really wish we were the same age. I’m not sure if I’d appreciate him though if I were that mental and emotional age again. I told him all the lurid details of my past and he still wants to date me. He thinks I’m fabulous – beautiful, interesting, brilliant and sweet. He told me so. I have the good sense to turn him down but not the will.
I know this is a disaster waiting to happen. I KNOW this. But I can’t justify one man over the other. I just can’t. I’m terrified I’ll make the wrong choice. I’ve never done a good job of choosing men in the first place. So instead, I’ll just keep playing with fire and telling myself I’m an idiot.
Everyone who is an idiot, raise their hand!
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