In His Time

I truly believe God knows our every desire and it is his intent to fulfill them…but always in His time.

This past Sunday, I had to give praise to the Lord for the good he has done with my life. The evil ex (EE) destroyed my hopes, dreams, esteem and left my life heart tattered and torn. I had never been so hurt in all my life. My baby girl was having a hard enough time facing the challenges of her teen years – suffering with her own esteem issues and an absentee father. The decisions made by the EE only reinforced her feelings of inadequacy causing grief for us both. It was a very dark period in my life.

Then along came my Christian friends and their community. As pastor Ron promised they carried me from here to there and then walked by my side and brought me to the light. It was only just recently that I realized that not only was I whole again, but I was more whole than I had been before the EE left. I knew who I was, what I wanted in my life and I was surrounded by love and friendship. I was more than content with my life, I was thrilled.

And then He blessed me one more time. He brought PJ back into my life. Someone I thought I had lost forever. He was an ex-lover who became my good friend when our lives’ circumstances couldn’t allow anything more. I always thought that one day we’d be together again but never really believed it to be possible. As he put it, “This is the resumption of a wonderful relationship after a 20 year hiatus, during which we both suffered horribly.” And, here he is back in my life. And, he is everything I ever wanted in a partner. His ability to communicate to me and understand me is astonishing. He is kind, gentle, intelligent and fun to be around.

On Sunday, Bruce spoke of God giving us a gift so spectacular that we could have never imagined the gift prior to receiving it. That is how I feel. And if, I were to be asked, if I’d be willing to go through the pain and torment of the past few years to experience the joy that I am experiencing now, I’d say yes.

He knew my heart’s desire and He brought it to me. I have complete faith in this.