Ex-friend, part two.

So come Monday morning, still nothing from ex-friend. It was absolutely shocking to me. So I sent out the following email and got the immediate response.

From: me
Sent: Monday, September 28, 2009 11:17 AM
To: ex-friend
Subject: RE: so

I am taking your lack of response to mean you no longer want to maintain a friendship. While I really don’t get it or understand why you’re acting this way, I accept your decision. I will no longer contact you.


From: ex-friend
Sent: Monday, September 28, 2009 11:20 AM
To: me
Subject: RE: so

Maybe sometime we can talk in person. Up to you.


So what am I to make of all this? Seriously what should I do? I feel like he is being a passive-aggressive asshole. Part of me wants to write, “don’t do me any favors!” I mean seriously…fuck him! Be a complete jerk, totally blow me off and then that. Yes, I’m clamping at the bit to see you and dying without your friendship. I feel like he wants to tear me down and tell me what a horrible person I am. I just don’t understand his over reaction to the whole thing and am tired of his whiny ass, bitchy behavior. I really am. I feel like ignoring him for six days and writing back a one liner that says, “sure we can talk in person. Pick a time.” That of course is the very immature part of me speaking.

Part of me feels like he is jealous of my other friendships and jealous of PJ. He sees me as “on my way out” and it is easier for him to pull away now. He gets upset over the littlest of things. I can’t explain the behavior in any other way. And, we have had some good times and maybe it is worth maintaining the friendship. Maybe I should swallow my pride and say, “sure. Let’s do lunch on XXday.”

But, I’m not ready to do that. I feel like he has treated me so poorly, so hurtfully and I’m tired of his accusations. I’m tired of being treated that way by my so called friend. I don’t like it and don’t want to be treated that way any more. Maybe it is really time for this friendship to end.

So, for today, I’ll probably ignore the email. Maybe tonight I’ll have an epiphany. Maybe tonight I’ll figure out what I want to do and figure out a way to do it. Either way, I figure the most mature thing to do is to answer him. I can be the bigger person. It shouldn’t be hard considering the way he’s acting.

I really wish I could talk to BFE about it. She’d be able to help me sort through it all. I really miss her!