Self absorbed

I have a friend who I think is a bit self absorbed. it always seems to have to be about what is going on in their world. Very rarely do they take interest in my life. I try not to complain or make things all about me, but feel like there are times when I want a little bit of attention. I want a litttle bit of it to be about me. I had a biopsy this week. The only friends who know are people who asked me about it. My friend doesn't know. I told him a couple of times I had a doctor's appointment but he never asked why. He actually forgot about it and was mad because I didn't mention lunch to him that day.

It is funny how normally it doesn't bother me. But when I really needed to have a little bit of attention given to me and my needs, I didn't get it. So now I'm pretty sad over the whole thing. And, it is making me reevaluate all my friendships. It seems like most are a bit one sided. My counsellor once told me that it would be so wonderful for me to find someone who was as giving as I was. BFE is like that. But really, other than her, i haven't found many others who really seem to care about other people. I wonder why I surround myself with people like that.

Well, I'm going home sick. I really shouldn't have gone to work today. But, maybe, as I lie in bed trying to get rid of this sickness, I'll take some time to understand why I don't find friends who are more concerned with my well being. Probably because they are all like me, consumed with other people's problems...people who don't take the time to care back!