Stood Up, Let down

I've been stood up three times this week.  It really pisses me off when people do this.   BFE and BFF feel the same as I do and I don't ever recall us doing this to each other.  I am a social person.  I block out time for my friends to see them and do things with them.  If I have a commitment, I say no to other people and don't plan other things.  But to be told, on that day, I'm not going to be able to make it, pisses me off to no end.  I always try to give a few days notice.

Now after standing me up, my friend wants me to hold Saturday night to hang out with her.  I don't trust her not to cancel on me if something better comes up.  The worst part is one time another friend did it to her and she complained about it to me.  Yet, here she goes, today, cancelling for dinner tonight.  She says it is going to be a late day at work, but for some reason, I don't believe her.  Acutally, I know the reason.  One time she said she didn't feel like going out, as a last minute bail.  Then later, she told me about this date she had -which was the same day she bailed on me.  So of course, that still lingers.

I told her I'd hang on Saturday, but feel like her commitment is only an "option" to her and she is likely to bail on me, leaving me without plans.   I know this shouldn't bother me like it does.  It is hard on me, though.  I believe time is the most valuable asset me have.   It is limited and we have no idea when it will run out.  I treasure mine and schedule accordingly.  When I tell people I'll do something, I do it, unless there is a very good reason holding me back.  And, then, I'm truthful about it.

Any way, I guess I just feel so "optional" and let down by my friend.  I miss my girls....they rarely let me down like this.