Holiday Weekend

I’ve had quite a busy past few days. On Thursday, I went to see a DC united game. I haven’t been to one and had a great time. I love soccer…I hate driving in DC, though. But, it wasn’t as bad as I thought it would be. I always get so much anxiety about driving down there. YBBK treated me to the game because I took him to the Rush concert the next day (which was absolutely awesome!!!). It was nice to spend two days in a row with him. We have an amazing friendship. I can’t even begin to describe how well we get along. I wish things could be different with us. I wish he could be my BF, but that isn’t the way it is…so I am learning to accept the friendship and not wish for more. I think we can be close friends…well, at least until he gets a girlfriend. Then he’ll disappear…but I guess I’ll cross that bridge when I come to it.

As far as my heart goes, it still isn’t available for anyone else. I’m not sure when it will be. On Saturday night, the weather screwed up my entire day but I ended up going out to dinner with a guy I met a few weeks ago. We’ve been talking here and there. I can’t tell if he just likes talking and hanging out or is interested in dating. I can never tell these things…why can’t I??? Any way, I’m not interested in dating him and he doesn’t act like he wants anything more. He knows my heart is pretty bruised up, so either he is willing to wait or he just likes hanging out. I remember I had the same dilemma with guy who lived near BFF. I could never tell what he wanted. With him, I didn’t care because I liked his friendship and would be interested in being his GF if he wanted it. But, with this new guy, I’m not really interested in BF/GF relationship. I figure I need to be sure he understands this so he doesn’t waste time with me.

Yesterday, I spent all day canoeing and then a bicycle ride. It was grueling toward the end. The canoe ride (down the Gun Powder River) was awesome…some falls, a few tricky spots, but in all a really pleasant ride. My friend was a jerk when it came to the bike ride. He took off like a bat outta H E double hockey sticks and left me peddling my tush off to keep up. I decided right then and there I never want to ride that stupid bike with him again. Ugh! I hate guys who do that. I’m relatively fit and able to keep up for the most part. Btu I told him ahead of time my knee was hurting and I might have trouble riding the bike. The jerk! That is one problem with doing activities with guys. If it had been a girl, she would have waited or just said, “hey, I wanna get my heart rate up. I’m going ahead and I’ll wait for you at Y. Is that cool?” And I would have been fine. Instead, I had to race hard to keep up. It was not fun.

And, as a result, I was hurting pretty bad last night and again this morning. I totally need a massage on my shoulders and my IT band. It would be nice to have a BF to do that for me and then cuddle me. I wanted to be cuddled so badly yesterday. I missed not being able to call and talk to Mom. It is why I pretty much ignored the holiday.

Except, Boo came home and hid eggs for Other Daughter and me. I love my Boo so much. She is so dang cute and sweet. I should have made her a basket. She hardly ever eats sweets, though. When she was little, her Halloween candy would last til Easter, when I would throw it away. Then, her Easter candy (usually a basket from me and at least three sets of grandparents) would last until Halloween – when it got tossed. So as she has gotten older, I’ve laid off the candy.

Any way, I know it sounds silly, but I’m glad this holiday is over with. Maybe next year, I’ll feel like celebrating. Maybe the big G and I will be back on speaking terms and I’ll have found a new church by then….maybe.