Surprises

It's been rough... really rough for me for the past few weeks.  This week was full of surprises, though.   I have to say, I am blessed beyond belief!

I was "clean up" my computer one day.  I had my head phones on and was organizing my work.  Basically taking everything I"ve done for the last 7 years and filing it away.  I was moving files that I kept on my desktop for easy access.  These files were the guideline to the department I had built from nothing into a well oiled machine that helped us to develop product with our suppliers in a way that prevented quality and supply chain issues.  A department that I had no idea that I had taken so much pride and joy in. As I moved the files, I began crying.  I thought quietly.  But I had my head phones on.  I think I was sobbing audibly because the next thing I knew, D1 from the office next door was standing in my office asking if I was okay.  As I tried to compose myself and explain, Fav FOB joined in.  I explained I was being ridiculous but they stood there and listened, and told me they understood.  I know it must have been hard for these very rational men to listen to me but D1 was able to empathize with a story of his own.  I felt so loved and supported.  It felt good to know people who seem to understand me and love me in their own way.

Later in the week, R got in touch with me.  It was amazing to feel her loving support.  To know that I have a friend who knows all my bad but still cares.  I messed up and in all my self-pity had forgotten her birthday.  It was because of that she knew something was wrong.  I hate that I missed it but love that she knew me well enough to know that something must be wrong for me to have forgotten. 

I was talking to a lady at work about seeking employment elsewhere.  I told her I had to consider a company that I normally wouldn't.  They build military weapons and I don't believe in using my talent to do so.  I can't imagine facing the Lord and telling him that I went against that which all of my body said no to just to make some money.  I told DB that things had gotten so bad that I needed a change and if God didn't want me to work at military engineering, he needed to open up some doors for me.  Within the next three hours, I uncovered a job within my current company with a boss who wanted me, my old boss who works at another company with a position he said I'd be good for and a friend who said her agency was hiring and I'd be a good fit there....none of which are military associated jobs!

God is so amazing.  I can imagine Him saying to me..."You hadn't asked me.  All you had to do was ask!"  He continues to put people in my life who love and support me.  And, when I ask, He answers.  Yes, I am very blessed and ready to put this funk behind me!