exactly but...

Another man and another exactly but... What does that mean? I meet someone and I think wow, this person is wonderfully great. He is exactly what I am looking for. And then "but" comes along. This time but he is too young. How do I define too young? Closer to Brittany's age than mine...maybe. Or just at such a different place in life than I am. Someone who will probably want to start a family. Any way, I had the most wonderful time with SSS on Wednesday. It felt so good to go out with someone with no expectations attached. We had a nice leisurely lunch. He was so appreciative of the birthday gift that the world's kindest and most considerate girl purchased and then shared credit with her two best friends. I hate taking credit for someone else's thoughtfulness! I am so not that thoughtful. I try. Hmmm...I digress here.

Any way, SSS was the most patient teacher ever. Really didn't get frustrated with my phobic fear, anxiety and just plain out pansy-like behavior. It was so refreshing. I think that is the best way to describe him...refreshing. He is just so damn sweet, honest and not about getting laid. I guess the not about getting laid is what makes him refreshing. After we shot, we went back to clean the weapons (not guns). He showed me how they worked...never minding my incessant questions. Another refreshing thing. I am such a curious person. Constant questions about everything. Sometimes to the point of aggrevating another person, but he never seemed to mind. We had so much in common from taste in books, type of art we like (impressionists - esp. Monet), how we like to spend our free time, being hopeless romantics, work ethic, vacations, etc. Really, the perfect guy.

But, the age gap won't be bridged for years. And we could never really be more. Of course, the coolest thing about him is he has a lot of friends that are girls. We can be friends and that is totally cool by me. Of course, it didn't keep me from getting this silly little grin on my face when I saw he emailed me. Or keep me from being excited about spending more time with him. But, I do know I am being silly. I'm pretty sure he has the hots for C3. I think it would be awesome if they went out because she's one of the best people I know. Not sure she's ready for a relationship, though. Just like I'm not sure I am. Maybe that is why God hasn't put Perfect without a But into my life just yet. I'm holding onto that. I am happy. I have the best friends anyone could ask for...who wouldn't be?