More thoughts about him

Why do I always have to do the logical thing when it comes to you? I walked away when the time and place weren’t right. I let you go when I knew my heart belonged to you. I ignored the feelings I knew to be true because I feared they would only lead to heartache. I gave up trying to remain connected to you because it would get in the way of the practical that was the here and now. I let you make the hard decisions because I knew you wouldn’t let the emotions rule you. And now my emotions come flooding back with no way to control or satiate them. I can only suppress them with brute force. Because running off to follow the romantic dream isn’t something I do, having been well trained in the laws and rules of the physical realm.