Weekend fun - hangover

So where do I start to report on my weekend. It was fun, fun, fun!

I had a great time Friday night. I went to a happy hour with my meetup (MU) group. BW (my beautiful new friend) was there. She finally breaks down and tells me about her top secret beau. For some reason they are keeping their liaison on the down low. I had been emailing/texting him during the week. He seemed to be flirting a bit. But, maybe he thought I knew and it was safe. Any way, I'm glad I know now. There were a few other friends of mine there and I had a great time. I even made a few new friends.

Saturday I went hiking with CB. It was a nice hike and a beautiful day. Interestingly, in our discussions I’ve uncovered a few things that I had wondered about. First of all, he indicated to me that he doesn’t like going to his Dad’s for Thanksgiving. His dad only lives 40 minutes from him and it would be his dad and step-siblings. I didn’t get into why, but he said he didn’t like to do it and would be glad to have an excuse not to go. This explains why he wasn’t interested in spending time with my sister. So, yeah, it wasn’t some sort of commitment issue. But yuck, it is an issue if he wouldn’t want to spend time with family.

Second, he told me that he’s felt “spread thin” this semester with class and work. It explains why he doesn’t want to spend any other time with me than on the weekend. He even mentioned that when he was done with class, that he wanted to make a commitment to himself to go to one MU a week after class is over. He also mentioned wanting to coordinate it with me. But, he went on to say, that would just be for 4 weeks and before he took another class. Again, makes me understand the behaviors that didn’t make sense, but does not help in the long term view of things.

Third, he fell asleep when I was showing him my pictures. Not once but twice. I know the hike was long and he was probably tired. But it really bugged me when it happened a second time. I love my photography and he had indicated an interest in it. I don’t think he truly is.

Finally the fourth and worst one is his complete lack of affection/physical contact. I’m not sure if he just isn’t ready to “go there” emotionally. But, I don’t like that he doesn’t hold my hand, touch me, etc. Yes, I could do it first, but I don’t always want to be the person reaching out for affection. When I met him out for drinks, he was already sitting in the booth. He didn’t get up and hug me. He did, however kiss me good bye. But again, when he showed up for the hike, there was no hugs or kisses hello. Perhaps I should have made the move, but I’m not sure it even phased him that I didn’t. After the hike, he had plenty of time back at the house, but again, no contact. He seems like there is no affection unless it were to lead to something else. Again, I could be wrong, but I don’t like this thought at all.

Any way, I’m not sure if I am looking for issues or if they are truly red flags I should be concerned about. And, the reason I mention the not being sure is the fact I think I am falling for PG. He called me Friday just to warn me of the traffic I was about to encounter. Of course, the cynic in me wonders how many other people he called as he was stuck in traffic and finding ways to cope. But still, I was excited to see his name pop up on my cell. He was unable to go on Friday (he had his son). But, I saw him on Sunday and had a great time. It was funny because I went out to see a good band with the MU group. I met another member (male) at his house for lunch and he drove me the rest of the way to the bar. PG showed up and we had a nice time talking and dancing. PG seemed a bit jealous (maybe) that my other friend was paying attention, dancing with, etc. me. But then again, I could be wrong. I definitely feel affection towards him and yet I get a sense he seems to want to keep it platonic. It’s hard to tell. And, I wonder if my interest in him is just purely the “chase” interest. Or the fact that CB seems to be lacking in some key areas and I’m second guessing that relationship.

Any way, I’m pretty tired today - perhaps I have a weekend fun hangover! I figure the best thing to do now is play ostrich and try not to think about anything for a bit.