I don't understand him. I've cried and cried til my tears are no more. How could someone act with such dishonor and lacking integrity? I was nothing but good, kind, honest and loving to him. I can understand that he doesn't want me any more, but to be so cruel as to not give me a bit of respect and honesty. I call and tell him how sorry he is going alone and he doesn't tell me he is taking someone. I ask if he has someone with him and he says no, just meeting them there. I gave him two opportunities to tell me and not let me be hurt like that. But he didn't. Why?
The only reason not to tell me is because he was seeing her when we were still together, has more than "friends" intentions or he wants to hurt me. Or all three. Why couldn't he be straight up with me? Why did he have to turn out to be as dishonest and asshole as every other man i've met. How could I have been so duped? I feel like I am the stupidest person on the face of the planet. Men constantly deceive me and I constantly think the best. I don't want to change that ever. I don't want to be suspicious or build walls, but every time this happens, every time a man lies to me, my heart breaks a little bit more. i'm thinking soon, I won't have but pieces rattling around in my chest.
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