about me

There are times when I'm questioned about who I am and my motives.  I posted this first over several years (2007) ago when I had heartache because I wasn't who my friend thought I should be.  I'm posting it again because it still holds true.

I've learned some things along the way, so I've added them to the end. 

Who I am:

I rarely paint my finger nails because they get ruined the first time I have to take something apart at work. I paint my toe nails during sandal season.

I chew on my cuticles whenever I get nervous, upset or bored. It’s a terrible habit I’ve had my whole life and can’t seem to break. It hurts me when people give me a hard time about it.

I rarely wear dresses or skirts…they are very impractical in my line of work and I rarely go out any where fancy enough to wear one. If I do wear one, I like to get complimented. The same goes for wearing makeup or styling my hair.

The only magazine I read regularly is Machine Design. I think it is cool.

If I can fix something by myself, I just do it. I get frustrated when I can’t figure stuff out.

I play sports and I’m very competitive when I play.

While I need to plan ahead of time so it’s in my head, I wait until the last minute to buy most holiday/birthday presents and cards. Sometimes I forget to do it.

I am ADD and it seems like I’m not listening - a lot. Sometimes I am actually listening but other times I’m not. It’s not that I don’t care; it’s just what my mind does.

I retain most facts/conversations verbatim, even when it seems like I’m not listening. This doesn’t make me think I’m smarter or better than anyone. I think I was given this ability to make up for me being ADD and forgetting to pay attention half the time.

I love to cook but don’t want to do it for people who don’t compliment me on it. Along the same lines, I need positive reinforcement and assurance that things are going well or I will assume you have a problem with me.

I have a master’s degree and know it’s a lot of hard work to get one. I don’t think people who don’t have one are stupid, just they didn’t take the time to get one. I don’t think I’m smarter then everyone because I have one. But I do have one and think some of the stuff I learned is cool.

I like to know things, how they work, how stuff has been studied. I like to have all the information about stuff because I think it is fun. I don’t like to not know stuff.

I assume other people like to know, too, so I share. I’ve learned some people would rather not know. I feel sorry for them.

I am a big hearted person who takes in strays of all kinds. I forgive very easily…some would say too easily.

I lose my temper quickly, but get over it quickly, as well. Truly, I don’t hold grudges.

I’m quick to trust. But it’s easy to lose my trust. And, if you do lose my trust, while you’ll eventually get it back, there’s a good chance you’ll never get it back 100%.

This is me…and most of it I can’t change. I don’t think I’d want to, any way.


Then there is Maybe...written by my very DEAR friend about me....

Maybe …
… you’re a good mother, encouraging Brit to be respectful, giving her freedom to become herself.
… you have friends and family that share your disappointments and want to lighten your load.
… you think there is so much in this world to see, and that you want to see it all.
… you have no idea how absolutely beautiful you are and the beauty on the inside outshines the outside
… you are sometimes like a butterfly floating above the trees, wind and dreams keeping you aloft.
… you believe snow on Christmas is beautiful and sent from heaven especially for you.
… you are creative and able to express your thoughts convincingly on paper.
… you think dogs are gifts to humans and cats are, well cats are just cats.
… you believe young children are innocent, and learn hate and suspicion from adults.
… you believe that lying on a beach, enjoying the “local scenery”, is a good thing.
… you think having a beach house would be great, but would miss the seasonal changes.
...  you believe there is a GOD, He looks out for you, and you’re on a first name basis with Him.
… you believe there is someone for everyone and they share the same romantic dreams as you.


What I've learned along the way:

I'm not a good judge of character...at first.  But since I'm cautious to let people in, I usually don't get burnt.

I love my fellow mankind and think people deserve a second chance.

I feel compassion and want to help everyone...it's part of that being bigh hearted and taking in strays (and collecting lost souls).

Sometimes even good people hurt you.  It's because they themselves are hurting.  This doesn't mean they are bad but it doesn't mean you have to accept the pain they inflict, either.

I've been told that I have a flirty way about me that is fun and attractive.  That I make the person I talk to feel like the most treasured person on the face of the planet.  But when it is directed at someone besides my significant other, it will cause jealousy.  I don't know how to change that.

I think I'm good with good intentions.  Otherwise, I'd change.